The Beginning

I hate thinking back to when i was younger. I always remember the weirdest shit that has no meaning and i'm the only person who remembers it. Sometimes i think of stuff in the middle of the night that happended in 3rd grade that i know i'll remember untill the day i die, and it has no meaning! Hm.

Lately i've been unable to decide if i believe in God or not. I used to. I even went to Bible Camp multiple times, as well as youth groups and bible studies. I don't know.. lately christanity has been looking like an illusion. Not to mention half of the people who call themselves Chrisitians are horrible people who lie, judge, and condemn others. Shouldn't Chrisitans actually act, Christ-like? And i've read some critisism on the bible, and it's true that the bible actually does say some of the most redicuious things. Just weird shit really, such as God asked some man ''who are you, what is your name?". SHOULDN'T HE KNOW!? lol.

I am green today, apparently.

I want to redo my room, because it's incredibly ugly. But at the same time i'm going to be graduating in a year (roughly) and it feels like that would be a waste of time and effort, not to mention money. New Years should be really fun this year, potluck! I should be cleaning my room, it is literally outrageous how messy it is. Or watching lost. Even though i'm pissed that Charlie dies in the later seasons. HOW SHITTY. I think i need to stop going to la fiesta, the waiters know my order.

I dyed my hair again, i'm not sure why since it's the EXACT same color. Should i dye it darker or lighter? Maybe neither, i think i should leave it alone for awhile and let it recover. It hasn't grown in a couple months. At least that's what it looks like...

days and days

Last night was one of the funnest nights i've had in awhile actually, not to mention totally sober. Peyton and I spent the night at michelles and for some reason me and Peyton were so loud and obnoxious. LOL. We painted Michelle a mural, while managing to use up all of Michelles expensive actrilic paints and ruin her hairwood floor, not to mention her brushes. My dad rudely picked me up and i had to go to my batting lesson, which i despise. I was hoping he would forget and I left my car at home so he wouldn't make me drive home. Friday was incredibly foggy and Peyton made me drive her car to the mall, in the fog, even though i didn't even have my contacts in. Eventually i was going at an average speed of 35 on the highway but whatever, don't judge.

Christmas was okay this year, but boring since we have no family in this area. But i got a laptop, so i'm content. My birthdays in 3 days and i'm probably not doing much, just having like one or two people stay the night. What is there even to do? Besides the obvious, and not in my house. Ha. I wish i could change the name of this blog, but i don't know how, or if it's even possible.
I'm kind of nervous to put anything not appropriate on here, in case my parents or other type of relative reads it. Oh whatever i guess.

Burns Living Flowers

Also, i just finished "The Host" by Stephanie Mayer. It's amazing, definitely top ten. I mean it's no Harry Potter, but what is?
http://www.amazon.com/Host-Novel-Stephenie-Meyer/dp/0316068047/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1212701147&sr=8-1

The Immortal

Lately i have been weirdly, and randomly obbsesed with Dorian Gray from LXG.

I have no clue why, but i find him UNBELIEVABLY attractive. For realz. Can you say, gorgeous?

Night and Day

Went camping last night with Michelle and Kaeli for Michelle's birthday, and it was HILARIOUS. FER REALZ. Definitely camping more often from now on.

Also i have been listening to Sergio Mandes for the past couple of days, and i have no idea why.

hey tranny, it's tranny.

http://www.nbc.com/Saturday_Night_Live/video/#mea=227155
i love this.

the pain begins

Softball is literally ruling my life at the moment. It honestly never leaves, or ends. Also, for our traveling team, the coach wanted us to get someone to "sponsor" us, and to donate a dollar for every pin we knock over during a game of bowling. How stupid is that? What type of sense does that even make? None, is the answer.

after all these years

My friends are loons, and so am I.