The Beginning

I hate thinking back to when i was younger. I always remember the weirdest shit that has no meaning and i'm the only person who remembers it. Sometimes i think of stuff in the middle of the night that happended in 3rd grade that i know i'll remember untill the day i die, and it has no meaning! Hm.

Lately i've been unable to decide if i believe in God or not. I used to. I even went to Bible Camp multiple times, as well as youth groups and bible studies. I don't know.. lately christanity has been looking like an illusion. Not to mention half of the people who call themselves Chrisitians are horrible people who lie, judge, and condemn others. Shouldn't Chrisitans actually act, Christ-like? And i've read some critisism on the bible, and it's true that the bible actually does say some of the most redicuious things. Just weird shit really, such as God asked some man ''who are you, what is your name?". SHOULDN'T HE KNOW!? lol.